Lessons

"But if these years have taught me anything it is this : you can never run away. Not ever. The only way out is in. " 

Junot Diaz

You can't get out of the situation you are in. In order to get to the other side you have to come to terms with where you are and trust you are thier because it will teach you. Once you live in the situation you are in you will on the way to the other side .

Realize your size

When I realized I am the only one who can take charge of my dreams and make them happen I realized how much bigger I am than I thought I was. Sometimes where we fit in the world is a gray area but it becomes more clear when you take charge of the individual you are.

No one is more you than you. 

Share how God has changed you.

My story is not a mistake... It is a gift. It took me awhile to figure out how to use it. I have a unquie knowledge about a relationship with Christ because of how I was drawn to him in hard times. That's a light I must shine; the fact that smiles and true joy can conquer sorrow and utter confusion, only with The Lord. How will you shine!

No one but me

No one else had been exactly where I am or where I have been. It's time to be thankful for the places and circumstances I have stood in. It is these that are making me who I am. 

Goliath sized battles

As a child of the Lord we each must face different sized battles. David before he became a king was a shepard and had to protect his sheep from many animals before he faced Goliath after the army of God trembled back into thier tents for 40 days. If we can not trust God in the small battles how will we make in the larger battles? Yes it's hard to accept the battles The Lord puts in our life but I have come to see I can not be who I want to be in The Lord untill I allow him I do his work in my life. Sometimes what we go through is ridiculously tough but if you look deep enough and seek God hard enough you will see why The Lord has picked you for this unquie battle. Open your heart and look for the Goliath battle or battles The Lord has chosen to place in your life, not anyone else's. Trust in him  and understand transformation is coming. 

This all became clear to me within the last week in which I spent in Knoxville TN. Working with highschoolers spreading the love of Jesus and roofing in need homes. I thank The Lord for answering my prayers and answering some of questions ; such as why is this happening to me? Why me, well because he has a plan for me and needed me to understand and get it together. Just like a shepard breaks a sheep's leg that continually wonders off to teach it how to be dependent on it's leader The Lord had broken my leg and has shown me who my leader is, my Lord.

Patience is a virtue.

Pain is beauty. Embrace the pain and know you will be on the other side sooner than later, and once you are you will be closer to who God made you to be ! 

Healthy habits

Write hard. Allow your brain to work through your feelings and circumstances. Open your mind and listen to what you are being told. 

The journey

Found some beautiful moon rocks on the beach and it sparked a thought process that calmed my soul. As I looked at all the shells in the beach and then back to the smooth, round, and unquie rocks in my hand I thought about the journey that brought each one to same island I was standing on. I thought about the waves that crashed them into the sand and carried them away. I thought about all the miles traveled. I thought about all the years it took to make the rock so smooth and round. Then I thought about me. I don't know where I will end up but The Lord has planned this journey. Waves will crash on me and carry me away from everything I have come to know, but I'll end up on the island The Lord wants me on.